Nothing New on a Detour

roadOn the road, detouring through a new town that these eyes have never seen, still there is a knowing, a recognition of something that has not changed with the clocking of kilometers.

Nothing here is new. Nothing here is not known. Nothing here is separate. There is an alive freshness, though not a strangeness. There is a sameness.

Actually, it’s been that way the whole trip; something has stayed the same, all the way from Brampton; it was just made so much more obvious when seeing new objects in a new town. A vastness, peace, and joy comes with this eternal, unchanging recognition. This is true wherever you go; check it out for yourself. (Odessa, Ontario, June 2, 2014.)

Wherever you go, there you are ~ Jon Kabat-Zinn


What do you see?


A pair of nesting ducks, and the first butterfly were two of the wildlife signs of spring I saw today. On my bike ride, suspended directly over the path on slender, delicate branches was a porcupine, happily munching on delicate new buds and branches. People stopped, craned their necks back and took photos (and as you can tell, I did too.)

Most comments went something like… “Yes, it really is spring.” That may have come from the long and unpredictable winter we just had. Parting ways, as I turned to mount the bike a woman said, “I hope you see something!” I laughed inside, “I can’t not see something… I always see something – everything!”

That is the strange thing about common experience, people have come to see everything as ordinary, as mundane. For most, it takes a dramatic change of seasons for them to notice anything, for them to appreciate and enjoy anything. It is common place on my excursions in the woods to meet people who try to see what I am seeing by looking in the same direction, peering, narrowing, and squinting, only to finally ask, “What do you see?”

If I told them, they’d not believe me. Continue reading

We are not in control

We are not in control

and why that is a good thing…

The car was selected, a cheque written, the insurance coverage arranged, and on the day of delivery a friend drove me to pick-it-up. The first thing I did was show her the car. The first thing she said was, “It’s not a hatchback.”

She knows me well. I once had a sedan, and after later getting a hatchback, I would never go back.

I said “What?!” It’s been so long since I had a car that I just forgot that preference, and with her comment it all came flooding back. The deal was off. Continue reading

Cosmic Pathways Alchemy Audio

Cosmic Pathways Alchemy Audio

This month I worked a healing booth fair for charity, giving 20-minute Alchemy sessions, back-to-back.
Here’s a participant’s comment, plus the audio recording of my presentation.

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Cosmic Pathways Healing Fair sessions


Faster Than the Speed of Mind

Faster Than the Speed of Mind

When car and scooter meet, scooter loses.

The explosion rattled my ears, and the last thought was “Not again!?”

There was a sense of humour in that thought, in the midst of the world once again moving faster than mind. A little over a year ago I was a passenger in a car that was hit from behind while waiting at a red light.  We all had the same experience, that there was an explosion, and a “long time” after it, during which we wondered what the explosion was – until we realized it was us. By then we had crossed the intersection to the other side; and very fortunately we were not hit by cross-traffic. Continue reading

Mind the Gap – You are Before Thinking

The water splashed over the edge of the bucket and pooled out on the bathroom floor, running under the door.

I looked down at the puddle and a moment later heard the thought “water spilled on the floor.”

The obvious time delay in that thought arising was almost shocking, and I chuckled at the redundant comment from the “peanut gallery.”  Years ago I never even noticed the delay. Today, in this moment, it was never so obvious that thought comes after experience—and quite some time after! Continue reading

Burning Bridges

It was the sun warming the trunk of a tree that I am sure drew the young porcupine to test its strength and start to climb.

It strained and tugged but met branches that blocked the way. Gripping and shaking, it began a retreat.

Almost to the ground another branch on the path brought the journey to a halt, or so it seemed.

Paused there, sitting upright, it rested for a few moments as it seemed to contemplate its predicament, and then began climbing up again, this time even stronger and faster, and going farther than before.

I thought of recent conversations with colleagues about the “tipping point” or “turning point” where, when a decision is made, it’s over and there’s no turning back. We’ve been trying to grasp what exactly that is; it seems to be a decision, but perhaps it is more than that. Continue reading

The way I met the Peaceful Warrior

The Way I Met the Peaceful Warrior

I love the old zen story about the farmer who’s neighbors thought it was a bad, unlucky thing that his horse ran away. The old man’s reply? “We’ll see.”

As the story goes, the horse came back with another wild horse, and the neighbors quickly switched to remarking how good and lucky that was! The old man’s reply? “We’ll see.”

Then the old man’s son started training the horse for riding, but he was thrown and broke his leg. Again the neighbors switched to how bad and unlucky that was. And again the old man replied, “We’ll see.”

Later the army came but could not conscript his son due to the broken leg, and again the neighbors congratulated him on his good fortune, and again he replied… “We’ll see”…

Yesterday I went to my massage and chiropractor appointments (due to having been in a car accident last April), and headed from there to where Dan Millman, author of Way of the Peaceful Warrior, would be giving a presentation. Arriving in plenty of extra time, I decided to have dinner at a restaurant, and called a friend who had been waiting to hear back from me. Continue reading

Seeing eye-to-eye

Seeing eye-to-eye

I looked and blinked. And looked. And blinked.

Something was not quite right with him. Something about his face. That was a year ago, and our first meeting. It was not until the third meeting that I could see what was obvious–he had one green eye and one grey eye!

And here it was happening again. I looked up at the doctor and noticed something “off”. Then she asked me what I was there for.

On the weekend I headed out for my walk but found myself being drawn deeper and deeper into the woods, and into the stillness. Onto a log, I layed on my back and released into it. Then sat up and sank further. Then drawn deeper yet into the woods I chuckled to come upon some old chairs, and settled into one. Apparently two hours passed.

The next morning, I felt pain and saw what I thought was a wound or sliver from being in the woods, and pulled it off. It took two pulls and when I dropped what I thought was a scab…it began to move–and I realized it was a tick. Knowing the possible meaning, and since it was Sunday and the clinics were closed, I went to the hospital. 

Showing her the wound, I looked-up again and still could not see her eyes or face clearly. And then I remembered my other friend’s eyes, and the fact they were different colours–and only then I clearly saw hers. One beautiful green, one beautiful blue.

It reminds me of a story about Columbus arriving in North America, and how the natives could not see the massive ship on the water until, as the connection, their medicine man pointed it out. It was just not in their world of possibilities.

Only when I recognized and accepted that her eyes were different colours could I *actually* see the different colours, and truly see her face, yet the mind still struggled with this seeing, as it ratified something new. You see, eyes are always sensing, but it is the mind that sees, or not. And what we have seen, we can see. What we have been conditioned to see, we see. What we have learned to see, we see. What we have not seen, we don’t see.

That does not mean that we cannot see it. It takes a clearing of pre-conceptions, or pre-existing beliefs, anticipations, and expectations because otherwise we just see those pre-conceptions; we see them mentally, and physically–physiologically, which are not separate. That moment of suddenly being able to see what had already been the case (two different coloured eyes) was very similar to my experience of sudden self seeing self experience. When the “dust” that covers our eyes, the pre-conceived ideas (like that “eyes should be the same colour”), are removed, then and only then can we see what was already the case–reality as it truly is.

The Alchemy of Love and Joy™ is a book, a story of suffering transcended into joy, and a simple practice anyone can do that will create a life full of constant joy. There are “Alchemy” practice groups and gatherings, and the practice is available free online, for anyone to learn and live:

Cindy Teevens, author of The Alchemy of Love and Joy™ says, “It was during great suffering that unlimited, eternal joy came to me. People don’t need to suffer, and by practicing “Alchemy” you never need to suffer again.” Her entire life changed dramatically, inside and out, and now she encourages everyone to—Seek Joy!

True Infinite Love

True Infinite Love


A gift arose with the early morning sun on my stroll today.

I had been contemplating the massive changes in my life and my experience of life since last April (when I discovered the joy we all are), when a big picture understanding struck me.

In Neuro-Linguistic Programming (NLP) it is known that we hold values that drive our attention, intention, behaviour, and beliefs. Beliefs cluster around values, and while we can loosen, erode, and replace beliefs one by one, it is a tedious and slow process because there can be many of them, and also perhaps  because they are important to supporting the more important, larger value they are linked to, and so we cling to them. A faster, highly effective method is to shift the order and priority of our values.

Contemplating this and what happened to me, I noted that all of my conscious beliefs had tumbled at once, and so there must have been a major shift in a major value. And then it clearly became obvious! I knew my topmost, utmost, driving value at the time was love. But it had not shifted priority–what had happened was that top value had shifted from “love”, to “love itself“.

Let me elaborate… when we do what is called a “values elicitation”, not only do we discover the true (sometimes unconscious) values which drive your life, we discover their order of priority, and we have techniques to shift these priorities. When you shift your priorities inside, major changes happen on the outside. For example, what if your most important, driving value was love, and then it became money? You can just imagine all the major changes that would follow.

It hit me that we have not (until this moment) looked at the object of the value, i.e. if love was your highest priority–love of what?

If it is the love “of someone else,” as in a relationship, then are are attachments and needs involved. You will require a certain kind of person, and for them to be (or not be) a certain way at all times, in order for you to experience love.  And of course no person will always at all times fulfill your fantasy. With this kind of love, let’s call it “attachment love”, you are actually trading needs, not being in a loving relationship. You hold hope for fulfillment of those needs. You are always on the look-out for those needs being fulfilled, or being violated. You will give and be loving so long as these needs are met, and the moment they are not, you are unhappy. You are attached to something outside of you, believing it to be your source of happiness, and you are needy, and unstable.

What you fear (like this person not fulfilling your needs), appears in mind, even if not in truth. You will believe and perceive what you don’t want to have.

Having had the object of my love ripped from me because of false appearances and this type of needy fear, I could have become jaded, and dropped love lower on my values scale. Perhaps this is what temporarily happens when someone is dumped, they move away from relationships for a while, however the innate desire to experience love remains and so eventually they venture out again.

Instead of dropping love as a priority, when I realized we are the source of love and joy, and that I could feel the love I wanted without the person–that this is actually and truly an inside fact, I shifted the object of my love to love itself.

That intention was seeded already, as there was a growing desire to give and be only love, to have a mutual dropping of the false faces and the mask of ego, to be open, and genuine, and safe in vulnerability, to have and experience unshakable, infinite love. While you cannot be assured the other will drop their defenses, the chances are better if you do first. Knowing you are the source of your happiness enables you to do this. Even if they do not open to the possibilities of true, infinite love, you can be it and thereby have it yourself.

As Gandhi said, “Be the change you want to see…” To me this is a very clear, direct, instruction to be the change (inside) that you want to see (outside). The Alchemy of Love and Joy is the how.

The love object ripped from me (and after promises of true love and permanency), yet the desire for, and the presence of, love still remaining, I shifted my highest value onto love itself.  I discovered that we don’t need an object to have the feeling or experience, and that in fact they have nothing to do with each other. I experienced and knew the full feeling and sensations of love without an object of love. Objects and people are not permanent. The love and joy of being is.

The power of the highest value is that it is a driver, it says “this is the most important, no matter what!” That combined with the fact that causing, being, and feeling love and joy is possible, no matter what, uncovers the fact that who we really are is freedom.

When the experience, or feeling itself, without object, becomes the actual value, you no longer need the object, you are not needy, you have more love to give than take, and, ironically, in the case of love, everything and everyone becomes an unattached object of appreciation, love, and enjoyment. You get far more on the “outside” than you could have ever gotten with attachment love, which limits you, puts all that impossible pressure on one person, and makes you unable to truly love them with infinite love.

The practice of The Alchemy of Love and Joy helps people break the belief that the outside holds their happiness, and to become self-fulfilling, to become non-attached–situation by situation. With a powerful enough experience, or repeated experiences, these old limiting beliefs can be dissolved. With a minor modification of the values elicitation process, it can be used to assist people to shift the object of their value from the outside to the inside, resulting in simultaneous mass dropping of beliefs–all at once–and this will now be incorporated into the Alchemy Retreats.

Love is still high on my values, but it is no longer the highest, because our highest value tends to be that which we do not have, and want. Now I have it. Inside. Eternally. What has become of utmost importance is concretely, experientially, beyond doubt knowing who I really am and what life and death is all about (not as a concept or thought), and that is now being revealed, and ironically, with it comes all the love, joy, gratitude, abundance, and bliss that exists within it.

Set your values high, and non-attached, and all you have ever desired will be yours. True, infinite love is a wonderful, attainable starting point.